sorry i havnt updated in like amonth or 2 but nothings been good enough to write...well amber came on the 7th and stayed till the 11th which was the greatest in the entire world......fri when she got here we jus hung out at my house then amanda showed up n hung out wit her got like 10 mins then she left n we went to codys house n his friend david was there so me n cody david n amber all went to club 22 but the cops were gonna be there tonite n me n cody didnt have our id's so we left n hung out n drove around for a lil bit then we went to taco bell n had the greatest time because we got all the people that work there listening to us n we were talking about sex n shit which was funni then we were driving back to codys to get ambers truck n cody goes omg were all gay haha it was funni at the time lol. but we got ambers truck n then came back to my house n watched a movie n she told me a story which basically ended with "will you be with me?" which i def said yes to cuz ive wanted to be with her for like ever .....then on sat we were gonna to to the mall but then decided not to n we jus layed in bed n cuddled and talked all day which was the best i love doing that.....on sunday we wopke up n she took me to denny's for breakfast which was awesome but then  she payed which wasnt kool cuz i hate people paying for me but then we went home n we were supposed to go to vermont but the roads were flooded up there so we couldnt so we came home n we took a shower togather which was wicked cute then my dad came home so we got out n played it off all kool like nothing happend then my dad left n we took another"nap" n then we headed out n went to target n saw paige n beth  n she gave me espresso mocha drinks n i was wicked hyper n then i bought 3 movies n she bought a couple n then we went back out n watched a movie called serenity which is good then we came home n watched like all the movies we got n we didnt go to bed till like 630 in the morning then we went to bed n monday we woke up n tok a jacuzzi bath  together which was aweomse with the bubbles n everything it was great then we got dressed n watched a lil tv n i watched cinderella haha but she fell asleep on the couch cuz of lack of sleep (shes so cute when she sleeps) so i did a lil laundry n went to my room n watched a movie but i went tou there like 2 hrs later n woke her up cuz it was time to go to dinner so we got dressed for dinner n went out with my dad n his 2 friends then we went out to the car after me n her were done n listened to music then we came home n layed in bed n i got really tired n statred saying a bunch of stuff n i guess i asked her to live with me which she said yes to when she gets out of the air force which is awesome n i gave her my class ring  n she gave me hers which she didnt have to do n i fell asleep on her n she woke me up for school on tues which she was supposed to leave but i had her come back to school 20 mins later n i left wit her n we went n picked up ashley n brought her to school cuz she had g.e.d n then we left n she took me to dennys n when we went to leave we couldnt cuz she locked the keys in the truck haah so wwe waited in the parking lot n when the guy got here we jus started laughing so we went to lowes to try n get a copy of ehr key but we cant cuz theres a chip in the kry which u can only copy it by the manufacturuers which sux cuz shes done this like 5 times b 4 haha but tis ok i still love her...then we went to walmart n walked around to waste time n then i brought her to the 5 combines n we sat n talked for like ever n i kissed her n this old guy saw n we laughed about it then we left like 20 mins later n she brought me to school n i cried my fuckin eyes out all day n i thought i was going to die cuz i missed her so much at that moment then i went to prac still crying which was not fun then i went home n cried my eyes out n i had to go to work which i was like teary the whole time n then i went home n my dad started asking me questions about me n her so i finally told him so he knos were dating which didnt go over too well but we went out to dinner tonite n were kinda on speaking terms which is ok ...but omg i miss amber so much it hurts alot but at least i kno well be together for like ever which is the best cuz i am soo happy about that ..i have to go tho cuz im starting to get like a hand cramp ill ttyl i hope

       I LOVE AMBER LYNN DERRYBERRY FOR EVER AND ALWAYS

sweetheart you make me so happy i hope it never changes love you

ok well i guess good news i got my liscence on the 9th which is pretty aweseome n on the way down to pick amber up from the exit i got pulled over by a cop but he let me go cuz idk where i was........but then i picked up amber n ashley was with me n we went camping up at my camp n got trashed for 2 days straight then came back to my house on mon n jus chilled out which was awesome cuz i jus missed her soo much im so glad we got to spend like a wwek and a half together shes so great then when she was getting ready to leave thurs we had an idea n decided that me n ashley were going to go wth her so were in ohio right now n were coming back sun when my dad gets back from ohio haha but he dosnt kno were here lol hhahaha..........but yah we went to this party tonite n ash n amber got wicked drunk they were puking n shit so me n this kid matt which is ambers friend took care of them he took ashley n i took amber ....she scared me  so bad i started crying i have never seen her like this ..she was asking me if she was going to die or not i was like omg no ur def not going to i promise ......but while she was drunk she told me she loved me alot n that she was scread to tell me n she jus kept telling me she loved me which i kno she was driunk but a drunk mind always speaks a sober heart  but im going to get going so i can keep an eye on her ...leave me some comments.............

             AMBER I LOVE YOU SO MUCH SWEETHEART YOU DONT EVEN KNO I NEVER WANT TO LOOSE YOU !!!!

sorry i havnt updated in a long time been working alot lately at the pizza hut ..the ppl there r great especially sarah n mindy they are the best in the world...been hangin out wit them  and kendie , mike locke, scott fisher  ,tad  ashley n soo many more people havnt really been home alot but thats ok..........ambers comin back on the 13 -19 i hope and were gonna chill out wit a bunch of ppl and shell be mine for a whole week im soo excited i miss her soo much ...she def means the world to me and im so glad i met her that girl has gotten me thru so much shes my savior i love her to death........but i hae to get going to get ready for work ..leave me some comments cuz i kno u read it  love u all

          AMBER I LOVE YOU N I CANT WAIT FOR OUR WEEK TOGETHER

well my lil vaca was fun out in ohio i got there n amber came to pick me up n we went to her housen watched some movies n she made me watch this really sad movie called million dollar baby which i cried damn her hehe....then we took a few "naps" n then went to bed ....n on sat we woke up  i made her go to the store to go get string so she could make me a necklace hehe n then we got ice for the cooler n went back to her house n had a few more "naps" n watched darkness which was a pretty good movie then around 430 we headed over to the beach party which was kool didnt kno neone but i learned ppls names n stuff n her friend katie knew i was a lesbian jus by like lokoin at me n shit i was liek omg shes good lol....but yah lets jus say i had a lil too much to drink n i couldnt walk to well n amber took care of me which was soo cute  n we slept in the tent on the beach wit like a bunch of other people in tents n then on sun we got everything together n went back to her house n took another "nap" then she brought me to my dads g/fs house n i stayed there that night then on mon i called amber n she came over for the cookout we were havin n then we went to the lake for fireworks it was soo cute watching fireworks with her i loved it then we went back to my dads g/fs house n hung out till like 1 in the morning n then she had to leave because my dad wanted us to get to bed cuz we were leaving the next day so i gave her a hug n a kiss n watched her drive away which was soo sad i ran inside n cried ...........................godd i miss her soo much i told her she should move in with me cuz i hated having her be so far away n that i want to spend everyday with her but she jus laughed which i understood but is only wishful thinking ........but yah i told her i loved her n i was surprised because she said it back actually meaning it i feel soo goddamn lucky right now i cant even explain it...........but i have to go now i will ttyl

                        I LOVE YOU AMBER N ALWAYS WILL